Sorry I was Unemployed Around You:
I'll just go die in the sewer as to not disturb you.
That title is how I feel most of the time now. I never once expected to be fired from my job for reporting a major rule violation. It happened though. The rule violator is still fully employed, making $60,000 a year while sleeping 95% of the time they are at “work” and they have health insurance, with vision and dental coverage. I’m hoping to qualify for Medicare, and I have no vision or dental coverage. I do have cavities that hurt like crazy, but no money to pay for a dentist.
Since November 2014, I have been unemployed for the first time in many years and I plan on sharing parts of my life with you.
First – It’s really, really scary. The last time I was unemployed my mom was alive and George W. Bush was still the President of the United States. I want so badly to wake up from what I think is a horrible dream, yet it is my waking nightmare. I don’t go to bed knowing that when I wake up, I will go to a job, and I will get paid every two weeks, and the paycheck will be enough to get by. Bills go unpaid some months – not because I forget to pay, but because I simply can’t afford to pay them. I feel worse with every letter, and every call reminding me that I am late on my payments. I’m willing to admit – I didn’t plan or save much when I was working because I thought what happened would never actually happen. Yet it did, and here I am.
Joblessness seems to scare some people – even though they are fully employed. I have lost a few friends since I told them about the change. It’s a real kick in the teeth when you know you’re being ignored and someone avoids you on purpose, yet it is completely out of my control. I’m the same person I was before I was told “We are terminating you effective immediately,” I promise, but they don’t seem to care. I do not know what I will do with those friendships when I am back to work, so that gives me something to think about besides the fact that after a slow afternoon the tip cup at Starbucks has more in it than my bank account.